Another day, more anxiety. Well, less anxiety, more just the feeling that my heart is beating funny. As always, I'm sure it's nothing though.
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October 6, 2026 • :
Back home. In bed with Abigail watching TikTok’s. Feeling anxious still. Well, I think it’s less anxiety. More that I’ve got left arm and chest pain and it’s worrying me and giving me anxiety.
October 6, 2026 • :
Abigail is getting some beautician stuff done at her sisters. I’m feeling a bit anxious today and not in a talkative mood really. So I’m waiting in the car – like a coward.
Log – 09:26: The cycle into work was especially bracing today — mainly due to wind I think. Glad I brought my Barbour waterproof. I used a feature of it for the first time: where the collar pops up and wraps/tightens around your neck. I felt a bit like Ryan Gosling in "Blade Runner 2049" in it.#
I'm suitably feeling rough this morning after not getting much sleep last night and also eating sugar — I really need to stop that.#
And talking of things I need to stop, I need to stop having double caffeine during the day (he says, with a bottle of cherry Coke Zero to his right). It's for sure the reason why I've struggled to sleep these past few days. I just can't resist. When I'm tired, and my Ritalin isn't kicking in, it's tough to resist. But I must.#
In fact I think I should start gradually lowering my caffeine in general. Just to see if it makes a difference. Maybe I won't get an afternoon energy crash and maybe I'll sleep better. I don't have anxiety, but once in a blue moon I'll have a little panic attack or feel the start of one. In fact, maybe I'm more anxious than I think. I do after feel like I might have a heart attack. I chalk it up to my hypochondria, but maybe it is anxiety. Either way, it's a worthwhile experiment cutting out caffeine.#